I had just watch Spiderman 2 and suddenly thot of william shakespeare poem...Its friday nite feeling slightly bored and tired tho a fren did ask me if i wanna join them for dinner, but kinda of lazy as i had late lunch cum breakfast cum dinner...Keeping my tummy for Sunday's sushi..hehehe so looking forward...My knee is recovering well...The first thing i wake up every morning is to do my knee therapy... i do it almost everyday and I just started my late nite walks of half hour yesterday...Perspire like crazy even tho it was jus half an hour..I thot beside doing my therapy, I should start walking slowly too...I hope it helps...Jus staying home, either am on the bed watching tv or sitting on the chair playing games...Soon i might turn into couch potato...hehehe...Alrite i shall stop my pen here and to share a poem by William Shakespeare to you guys...Cheers!
Thou blind fool, Love, what dost thou to mine eyes
That they behold and see not what they see?
They know what beauty is, see where it lies,
Yet what the best is, take the worst to be.
If eyes corrupt by overpartial looks,
Be anchored in the bay where all men ride,
Why of eyes' falsehood hast thou forgèd hooks,
Whereto the judgment of my heart is tied?
Why should my heart think that a several plot
Which my heart knows the wide world's common place?
Or mine eyes seeing this, say this is not
To put fair truth upon so foul a face?
In things right true my heart and eyes have erred,
And to this false plague are they now transferred.
~Sonnet 137
by William Shakespeare
Friday, May 23, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
When the Truth doesnt matter anymore
It was an official ending when the time I decide to walk away and when i know enough was enough.. I donno if it was consider a relationship to begin with,cant really put my finger into it..But then should i call all it 'relationship' when it just lasted for few months only? Hmm.. I guess it was more of a "dating period" mixed with liking.. The excitement i get whenever I have things to share with, the looking forward of me cooking up the favourite dishes and the suprises that i love to do just to see the happiness in the eyes...I was patience enough to give chances when craps and disappointment was presented to me each time..Deep in my heart I know there was a reason but hiding it from me was too much to handle.Hasn't honesty been the best policy no matter under what circumstances? I did my best to salvage it but it really takes 2 to tango. Too many lies and too many disappointment...I just want someone who is simple, sincere and down to earth..Perhaps a harmless notti sometimes to spice things up and at the end of the day we both know what we want..I am simple person and easy to be with andI couldnt be with someone whos indecisive and yet complicated..Somehow I feel I'm to blame too as i shouldnt have let my life to be entered to after I knew about the background. But I believe no one's perfect but that shouldnt be taken advantage of..When i heard the truth about you, It makes me more relief that the decision to walk away was right from the beginning..I shall learn from this experience and be better for the future... Everyone deserved happiness including me and you... I believe you when you say "I love you," and never to leave you but then again you were never there when i needed you most.. Anyway baby its your lost and not mine... You did break my heart but I shall rise again and be stronger... Thot that you will be the one after 5 years, guess you are just the same...
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
When Expectations Shouldn't be Expected
How i learn things the hard way, only to realise that i have reach my 1st 30s that actually learn what the true meaning of expectation....I guess most of us sometimes put Expectation without realising the consequence that lies beneath it...We put expectations on the one we loves,goals or sometimes even friends....To what extend should the level of expectations be?Sometimes we got so engross in it that we actually forgot that it should work both ways..We can go thru miles for someone that we love,be at the back of her call, sacrifice your time and sleep to learn to bake cake for the 1st time for her birthday, ride to her house at 3am with the cake and light it up with candle right in front of her doorstep, jus to surprise her.....n what expectation do i expect from her?noting...well that is what i tot...everything change the moment she forgot to wish me
Happy Birthday...the words i'm sorry i forgot which i still can accept, but the words, i remember but i was too busy to wish u...i was like huh??!!!!!....i was furious, refuse to answer her call or even to reply her smses...it was a total disappointment...it was sad...i don need expensive gifts, all i need is jus a wish, a wish from someone special to brighten up my day n to know that someone do remember me....is that too much to ask?It was disheartening esp from someone who claim i was her best fren and I was the only one that she trust with her life story and I was the only one (other than her bf) that can understand her....so i decide to punish her mistake by giving her the cold shoulder as long as it takes...
Bob knock it out from me...why am i feeling this way? why should i get so mad about not gotten the wish on my special day...He say that i have put expectation on her and yah i realised i did and i guess the expectations was higher for her....when the slightest mistake she did pisst me off...why am i feeling this way??Yes i had feelings for her even tho i know it was impossible n it would never be reciprocrate...feelings=expectations...i should have never set expectation cos knowing that fail expectations=disappointment...
We can know a friend for centuries and sometimes along the way things change...Should expectations toward the friend be changed at the same time? the answer is Yes...Everyone has their own life to lead at the end of the day....They can be there for us everyday for the past 10yrs, but how can we expect them to be here for us 10yrs later??Time changes people and expectations changes with time...Expect the Unexpected for Expectations shouldn't be taken for granted...
Now i have learn that even if i decide to go an extra miles for someone, i shouldn't be expecting anyting in return or having the person to do the same for me or even remember the things i did for them..Before you decide to do an extra miles for someone, ask yourself, wat do u expect out of tis?if its jus a pure friendly help without expectations, by all means go ahead...but if you do expect something out of the impossible, let's save the trouble ya..so now i decide to take things easy, still do set expectation but with limit and at same time be mentally prepare for disappointment...
Happy Birthday...the words i'm sorry i forgot which i still can accept, but the words, i remember but i was too busy to wish u...i was like huh??!!!!!....i was furious, refuse to answer her call or even to reply her smses...it was a total disappointment...it was sad...i don need expensive gifts, all i need is jus a wish, a wish from someone special to brighten up my day n to know that someone do remember me....is that too much to ask?It was disheartening esp from someone who claim i was her best fren and I was the only one that she trust with her life story and I was the only one (other than her bf) that can understand her....so i decide to punish her mistake by giving her the cold shoulder as long as it takes...
Bob knock it out from me...why am i feeling this way? why should i get so mad about not gotten the wish on my special day...He say that i have put expectation on her and yah i realised i did and i guess the expectations was higher for her....when the slightest mistake she did pisst me off...why am i feeling this way??Yes i had feelings for her even tho i know it was impossible n it would never be reciprocrate...feelings=expectations...i should have never set expectation cos knowing that fail expectations=disappointment...
We can know a friend for centuries and sometimes along the way things change...Should expectations toward the friend be changed at the same time? the answer is Yes...Everyone has their own life to lead at the end of the day....They can be there for us everyday for the past 10yrs, but how can we expect them to be here for us 10yrs later??Time changes people and expectations changes with time...Expect the Unexpected for Expectations shouldn't be taken for granted...
Now i have learn that even if i decide to go an extra miles for someone, i shouldn't be expecting anyting in return or having the person to do the same for me or even remember the things i did for them..Before you decide to do an extra miles for someone, ask yourself, wat do u expect out of tis?if its jus a pure friendly help without expectations, by all means go ahead...but if you do expect something out of the impossible, let's save the trouble ya..so now i decide to take things easy, still do set expectation but with limit and at same time be mentally prepare for disappointment...
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